Wednesday, October 31, 2012

NaNoWriMo 2012

Wow,'s been a few months since I've updated here.  There really hasn't been too much to update.  The writing has been mostly nonexistent.  There have been a few snippets I managed here and there, but nothing significant.

Of course, October began which in turn stirs up the NaNoWriMo pot.  I began to wonder if I should even try to attempt it this year since well let's be honest, I've not succeeded the last six years.  What would make this year, the seventh for me, different?  Everything!  And Nothing! 

For the first two weeks or so I just pondered if I should or not.  Then about half way through the month, I started getting all sorts of ideas.  GREAT!  Right?  That went on for about a week and a half or so.  Then oh yeah big surprise....I finally pull out a notebook and all the ideas....POOF!!!! Vanish...I can't remember even one of them.  So then, I figured I should just give it up and not do NaNo. 

But the bug had bitten me, the next thing I know I've got my Facebook profile picture set to my participant's icon, my banner is set to a wrimo theme too.  And it's all I can think about!  Plot, plan, characters, ideas be damned.  I don't have much of anything, truthfully I don't have a clue what I'm going to do.  I just have to try. 

I might not make it to 50,000 words.  I might not make it to 30,000.  I might not even make 10,000.  BUT I am looking at it this way....If I can get myself to write, everyday for the month of November regardless of how little or how much.  If I can write every day for 30 days, I will consider it a win.  It would be more than I've ever done any other time.  Of course the main goal is to write 50,000 first and foremost. 

I will try to post my progress here.  Hopefully this will kick of a revival of this blog as well.  It's time for no more excuses.  No more listening to the inner critic.  No more letting the voices of my past dictate my life.

Here's to winning NaNo!

Thursday, March 15, 2012

Ah, My Muse, Why Art Thou So Silent?

Well not really, I can hear murmurings but I want loud, shouts of HEY...WRITE THIS! Or..HEY, WRITE THAT!

Life is better, but not without a few more changes that still need to be made. I'm in a better place then I was from a year ago, even since my last post. I started the year off with great intentions of writing. Even had a few twinkles of ideas, but can't seem to get it down on paper.

But I think I know part of the reason. It's the same culprit that caused my Muse to go silent. It's name is cancer. I have a person that I am close to fighting it right now, another person I've grown close to has some skin cancer and now is facing tests to rule out bladder or kidney cancer. A fellow blogger's dad is battling it and another friend's mom is not doing so good right now and was admitted to the hospital last night.

When this f*cker starts hitting this close to home, it takes me right back to November 2006. Back to when I found out that it invaded my Grandma's body with a vengeance. I was told 3 months, I got a week. I felt robbed, cheated of just a little more time with her. I had no time to prepare my children, or to let it sink in myself.

How do I break out of that? I just want to write again.